Wednesday, December 15, 2010

What the fuck am I doing?

so. It's winter break, I'm about to go home for awhile. well...as close to home as I have. I feel like a nomad, the most steady place for me is on campus but even that doesnt offer the permanence I'd like. I think I'm ready for a new beginning, I think I want to move far away, not too far yet, but a big step out the door.

I called an old teacher of mine who I shared many late night talks, good food, communion, and the type of cameraderie that Ive only enjoyed a couple times in my life. It was a bittersweet phone call to say the least, It made me realize just how much i've changed or how much she's changed. I can't tell which. I feel lost and I'm just hoping to wash ashore soon. It might just be the cold messing with me. It's been barely above freezing all week which doesnt help when I get claustrophobic in this house.
I'm (re)reading When You Are Engulfed In Flames and James and The Giant Peach.

Sunday, December 20, 2009

27 27 27

I've always felt a strong connection with the number 27. When I tell people this they usually attribute it to my birthday, January 27th, and while I'm sure this has something to do with it I am convinced that there is more to it based purely on my own personal experiences and my heart.
I can never go a day without seeing 27 in the smallest places, or the largest. building numbers, bus numbers, telephones, written in chalk on sidewalks, graffitied on walls, everywhere. I don't look for them, they look for me, or something to that effect. I usually consider it some sort of omen and take extra care around it. Lately I've been trying to find out more about 27 through numerological means. This is what I've compiled so far:
the 27th book of the new testament is Revelation
27 is a triple (3*3=9*3=27)
2+7=9
It's considered a lunar symbol (my moon sign is Cancer)
according to the bible there are 27 generations between David and Jesus
In ch. 27 of Bulfinch's Mythology he talks of Pythagoras' belief that numbers are the building blocks of the world (he called three the whole number because it had a beginning, middle, and end.
The "27 club" (muscians that died at the age of 27) Janis Joplin, Jimi Hendrix, Kurt Cobain, Kim Morrison,
In Vedic Astrology the Zodiacal wheel is divided into 27 parts each 13 degrees and 20 minutes in arc-length (this is also based on the MOON not the SUN as in western astrology thus strengthening the lunar aspect)
In Vedic Astrology my nakshatra is Ardra - which is marked by a desire and need to overcome obstacles, it's ruled by an incarnation of Shiva and is a water sign (like my western Cancer) and is considered the beginning of the earth's menstrual cycle (again relating to the feminine Cancer sign)
In Gen 1:27 the Bible says that "So God created man in his own image,
in the image of God he created him;
male and female he created them."
male AND female. I really don't find it any surprise that I'm gay with all that feminine energy at the time of my birth. I can be both or neither sex at my will. Androgyny.
I'll post more on this subject later because I'm tired of sitting down at a computer screen.
I took the 43 Things Personality Quiz and found out I'm a
Tree Hugging Lifelong Learning Builder


Only 0.27% of the people that took this quiz got that result... 0.27...I've been reading about the mystical properties of the number 27 as it's my favorite number and I feel a connection to it...that makes this quiz result even more poignant...snifflesno, it was mine first. I may do a blog post entirely about 27.